The
years gone by tell a lot of the years to come. Such is the conviction
in mine heart after 7 years in salvation-10th
July is the date to be exact. As I look back over my shoulders, I see
a God who is relentless in His pursuit of me. The times when my heart
was prone to wander, He was there. The times when I wanted to throw
in the towel, He was there. The times under that dark cloud of guilt
and shame that I dared not venture into His presence, He was there.
The times when I envied the wicked and their lavish ways, He was
there. The times when the road ahead was marked with uncertainty that
I felt like a blind man groping along in a dark alley, He was there.
Seven years on and I have not quite figured Him all out but the
little I know, He is here.
Maybe,
trying to figure Him out is a futile pursuit. Maybe, He cannot be all
figured out. Why then does He dare us to try and do so? Me thinks
that therein lies the greatest of happiness. To borrow a worldly
phrase “the thrill is in the chase”. Then when we almost give up
in this chase, He reveals a lil’ tiny weeny bit o’ Himself. We
become so enthralled by this slice of revelation that we want the
whole loaf. We pick up our silly selves, plant our wandering feet in
the narrow way, fix our gaze up yonder and continue in our pursuit of
Him.
Then
there are those times when we are doing so well in this pursuit. We
let down our guards and that monster that usually comes before a fall
creeps in-Pride. We compare ourselves to the other wretched worms in
this pursuit and deem ourselves superior. “I have been doing this
for __ years”, we deceive ourselves. Soon we find ourselves mired
and we cannot wiggle out of it. Then, He, the ever gracious and
compassionate one, extends a hand. We grab it and find ourselves
free. It is then that it dawns on us that He has been the one chasing
us all along. The times when we think we are ahead of the game, He
is miles and miles ahead. Then we are humbled.
Seven
years on, I am in awe of Him who gave His all that I may be truly
His.
1 comment:
its hard to forget that eventful day. in my mind i was counting 8 years...the truth remains though that regardless of the time when we responded to Him,we continue to see as if in a mirror, and when perfection is come, we shall see Him as He is...
today we can only grow in Him as we allow the Holy Spirit to work in us that which is Holy and perfecting to Him...
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